Friday, December 7, 2012

A spilling of guts

I feel like time is moving so fast, I can't hold onto it. Since Gracie was born, time has just absolutely flown by. I mean, here it is Christmastime already! And my baby, Sierra, is four years old! 4!! It just seems like I brought her home from the hospital. Sometimes I wonder if I've wasted time not doing things I should have been doing with her. I think of all the times I've been angry with her and yelled at her when I could have taken that moment and given her extra love. I feel like I'm getting old. My kids are going to grow up so fast and leave. Be out on their own, starting their own families, and I'm going to wonder where the time went. This moment, I want to hold my sleeping baby Gracie and watch my baby Sierra as she sleeps. You just never know what's going to happen from day to day, so I want to give my kids the extra time and attention they need. An extra hug before bed, an extra story. One more kiss. One more "I love you." I just want them to know what they mean to me. That I wouldn't trade them for anything in the whole world. I just want time to slow down a little bit so I can watch them grow. I need to remember the special moments. I don't want to forget a single thing. Gracie's laugh is magical. Beautiful. Amazing. Her smile melts my heart every time. Sierra's antics crack me up. I love my beautiful, amazing, wonderful little girls so much! I thank the Lord every day for sending them to me.